Releasing Caregiver Regrets

Releasing Caregiver Regrets:
You can lose the weight of regrets

Most caregivers have regrets. They wonder whether they’ve done too much or too little, too early or too late, too harshly or too passively. They regret the things they’ve said and done, and more importantly, the things they failed to say or do.

Here’s my most painful regret. I decided to skip my grandmother’s 90th birthday party. After all, I argued to myself, I had just seen her a few months earlier, and it would be hard to take the time off work. On the morning of her birthday, my grandmother died from a massive heart attack. At her funeral I felt the crushing weight of regret. What could I have been thinking? What was more important than celebrating the joyous milestone of one of the most important people in my life?

Regrets hurt. They burn. Just as you’re wired with nerves in your fingers to avoid being burned by hot objects, so too you’re wired with regrets to avoid being burned by life. Just as you automatically pull your finger from a hot stove and avoid hot objects, regret helps you steer clear of the thoughts, feeling and actions that keep you from being your best and highest self.

I offer a hopeful message: you can be released form the weight of regrets.
What are regrets?

Regrets are a longing to re-write history. Forgiveness heals the pain of regrets. You know you’re healed when you can look back and let the past be just as it was without feeling the urge to change it. Then you move forward and make better choices in the moment so you don’t arrive at tomorrow and look back with regrets about today.

What kinds of regrets do people experience?

The kinds of regrets you experience and your response to regrets are shaped by your temperament. It includes the time zone you’re temperamentally drawn to: the past, the present or the future. It’s also shaped by your expectations of yourself, your ideas about how other people should act, and your take on how the world works.

How do you deal with regrets?

If you’re drawn to living in the past, the kind of regret you most likely experience is guilt. Guilt is a pain that tells you there’s a mismatch between the person you’d like to be and the person you were in that moment.

Imagine the thoughts, feelings and actions of your ideal self as one supporting structure of the bridge and your real thoughts, feelings and actions on the other side of a river. Guilt spans the distance.
You wouldn’t keep your finger on a hot stove; yet, the some people do the very thing with the burning of guilt. Guilt can become a grudge you hold against yourself.

You minimize guilt by making different choices in the moment, adjusting your image of the ideal you or both. My guilt surrounding my grandmother’s death reminds me of the importance of taking time to celebrate; I now plan my schedule differently. I also edit my embarrassing child-like beliefs about my own powers. My presence at my grandmother’s party would not have kept my grandmother alive any more than a phobic person’s worries about crashes keep the plane in the air. Healing guilt means forgiving yourself for being an imperfect human who made a one-time mistake.

If you’re drawn to the present moment, your regret most likely comes in the form of disappointment. As you look at the bridge, imagine the events of the world outside of yourself as you expect it to be on one side of the river, and the world as you experience it on the other. Disappointment spans the distance. I had relatives who were disappointed about my grandmother’s death. As irrational as it sounds, even adults believed my grandmother would live forever.

Disappointment and guilt are distant cousins; the difference is that guilt is an inside job.

Moving beyond disappointment involves adjusting your expectations about how the world works, or shifting your experience. My grandmother didn’t live forever. AND she lived much longer than the doctors predicted after her stroke. Healing disappointment means forgiving another person or the world or even the divine force for being imperfect.

If you’re drawn to the future, your regret may take the form of sadness about lost dreams. Imagine a vase filled with flowers. I think of hope as a vase and the dreams as the bouquet. It’s always sad when the fresh flowers fade; however there’s always something else you can put in the vase. My grandmother would not be physically be there to meet my yet-unborn son; however, my grandmother’s stories could be part of my son’s life. Healing the regret of lost dreams means shifting your attention away from the flowers on their way to the compost bin; instead you welcome the new bouquet.

It sounds so simple. Here’s the catch. It’s not easy. Forgiveness, like garbage removal, is not a one-time event. The first time you do it, the load may be so heavy the bag breaks and you wind up cleaning up a new mess. Over time-with experience-it gets easier. You learn to take out the little loads so it doesn’t pile up. And you can learn to generate less trash.

Consider giving yourself a gift. Forgive yourself for one choice that brought you guilt. Forgive one other person for one action that disappointed you. Forgive the world for the bolt of unfairness that stood between you and an old dream.

Then celebrate the richness that you enjoy today.

 

About The Author

Copyright 2009 The Caregiver Club. You may reproduce this article with attribution. Please include this text: Dr. Vicki Rackner is a former surgeon, founder of The Caregiver Club and author of Caregiving without Regrets. She works with people caring for others who want to manage stress, respond to loved ones’ needs and stretch health care dollars. Reach Dr. Vicki through her web site www.thecaregiverclub.com or 425 451-3777.

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